When we were in Haiti in June, we scheduled our I 600 Appointment with the US Embassy. To simplify, this is the first step in the process to apply for Ruth and Naomi's visas from the US government. We are planning ahead, so when the Haitian government approves their passports, we can already be in process of approval for their US Visas. The appointment was yet another part of experiencing the Haitian culture. I'll spare you the details, but it was a day I hope I'll remember for a long time.
We arrived for our appointment much less prepared than we would have desired, since most of the paperwork we needed was and still is waiting on the Presisdent's desk for his signature. So we didn't even have either of our girls' birth certificates, let alone several other important documents, or the translations, required. We answered several questions from the first woman who interviewed us, then sat and waited more, and waited, and waited more before the next officer questioned us. We were trying to figure out a system to the chaos of the hundreds of waiting people....we found none. But it was a very humbling feeling to realize 99% of the 300 or so people in the room, were Haitians requesting American Visas. (I digress)
We had been told by peers who had gone to this interview prior, to expect a due date for any papers we did not have ready at this first interview. That helped ease our nerves while we waited. Hence, we recieved a due date in September to file the rest of these papers. We pray our dispensation is history by then, and that we will have the papers necessary for their invesigation. If not, we will request an extension (which is very common).
Another requirement that was assigned at that interview, is that any biological parent must be interviewed to attest to the fact that they are willingly chosing to give their child(ren) to another family for adoption and not that they are being forced or bribed. Ruth and Naomi's mother, Milonne, is living. Her appointment was set for August 8 at 8:00am. Tomorrow is Aug 8! While I am feeding my boys breakfast, and getting ready to rush out the door to swimming lessons, Milonne is to be at the US Embassy in Port Au Prince, waiting to testify.
We had the priviledge in June, to meet the brave woman that gave life to our girls. She made the 8-10 hour trip (on Haitian roads) simply to meet us. She firmly wanted to have her interview the week we were in country, to minimize another long, uncomfortable, expensive journey into PAP. However, the Embassy was not prepared to interview her, and denied our request to schedule her appointment for the week we were in town. So, we are confident that she wants to appear for her interview. She expressed to us, how grateful she is that Ruth and Naomi have a family that will and does love them and is able to give them a life full of love and a future with hope. I do not worry that she will "change her mind" before our adoption is complete (yes, legally, she still could). But there are hurdles that cause me concern with the rest of the story.
The rest of the story that makes this even more complicated, is that, in June we learned that she was expecting a baby in July. For 7 weeks I've prayed for this interview. I've prayed that she will be able to travel back to Port Au Prince for her interview. I've prayed that her baby's birth would not interfere with her reporting to this interview. I've asked my adoption coordinator, Wilna, about her baby's birth each time we've talked. Don't hear me say, I didn't care about her health or her baby's health, I did care. But what I was really caring about was my selfish concern. I realized that what I truly was praying that her new life wouldn't interfere with ours. I didn't understand this, until today.
I spoke with our coordinator, today, and learned officially, now that Milonne's baby had indeed been born. A boy, Sammy (I think). Wait- no, there is no birth weight or length reported- because he was born, at home, with his mommy, alone, again. When we met her, I could tell she was a strong woman, and when I asked about Ruth and Naomi's birth story, it was clear that she was strong. She learned she was having twins, not in her 4th or 5th month, but she realized she was having a second baby after the first one delivered. Did you get that as slowly as I did?!!.....She learned Naomi was coming, as soon as Ruth was born. Remember, she was alone, in her home (a tent) in the mountains of Haiti.
Now, 2 years later, as she was hanging up clothes outside, she felt "something". She went inside to bring her baby boy into the world- her tent, with no one to share in her joy, hold her hand, or comfort her pain. My mind imagines a dirt floor, with a blanket I gave to her in June. There would be no running water, let alone someone to give her a drink of water. She did what she knew, and called a Doula (likely an untrained Haitian woman), who apparently helped her with the placenta, but now two weeks later, she is having pain, likely from an infection.
So, when I find myself praying that she will hop on a "bus" with her new born, to travel a full, long day into PAP to appear for OUR adoption, I feel selfish. Today, my heart has changed. I have had a day of reflection. I know that Ruth and Naomi cannot come home with out Milonne appearing to testify before the US Embassy. Our adoption cannot be complete without this step. Believe me, when I say, I want to be able to cross this step off of the check list of steps to complete our adoption. But, I find my heart not willing to desire this at Milonne's expense. This is so hard for me to grasp, as I have asked so many to pray that this "bio parent interview" would take place like it should tomorrow morning. Yes, I still want to hold onto the part that she could be sleeping in PAP tonight, and Wilna could pick her up in the morning to take her over to the Embassy to appear for her interview. But I want to desire God's desire. I am encouraged by Psalm 24:4-5
He who has clean hands and a pure heart, who does not lift up his soul to what is false and does not swear deceitfully. He will receive blessing from the Lord and righteousness from the God of his salvation.
I want to lay down MY desire, MY plans for the plans He has for my family. I WANT my girls home, to be tucked in down the hall from their brothers, so I am the first face they see every morning. I want to know what foods they will love to snack on, what sports they will want to play, or will they desire to watch their brothers. I want to take time doing their hair, and painting their nails. I want to memorize scripture passages with them, like we do their brothers. I want Danny to know his sisters are coming home, and that they aren't "at Haiti" anymore. I want them to know they are big sisters to Zeke. I want to mark their height on the wall with the rest of my children. I want to read Bible stories to them, and teach them that they are loved, they are special and they were chosen for our family.
As many things as I dream about and desire for each of my children, I know my Heavenly Father has plans for me that are greater, far greater, for my than I would have even asked.
I am thankful for Jeremiah 29:11- I cling to this for myself and for our girls
For I know the plans I have for you declares the Lord, plans for welfare and not evil, to give you a future and a hope.
I spoke with Wilna several times today. At our last, she wasn't sure if Milonne was coming into town today. She would have to arrive today, to spend the night in order to be at the appt in the morning. Likely, we will have to request that the Embassy will reschdule her interview. I honestly do not know what to pray concerning her appointment tomorrow.
I am thankful for the promise in Romans 8:26
Likewise the Spirit helps us in our weakness. For we do not know what to pray for as we ought, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us with groanings too deep for words.